Dear Dad, Part I: where my loyalty liesPosted: Monday, July 2nd, 2012
In this series of letters you may find some of the answers that you’ve been seeking throughout the existence of my life. It’s too late for our relationship, but know that I do still care enough to want you to change for yourself, for the sake of the other relationships in your life, and for the sake of the other people who happen to coincide with you in your life. I don’t want to see you lonely or suffering, but I can’t be a part of your life anymore either. For some reason, you lack the capacity to see what you’re doing and the extent of damage that follows in your trail. I don’t know.. maybe you do see it but choose not to care. Well, I have spent the majority of my life trying to change aspects of myself and my life to minimise the pain that you cause me, but I finally give up. I don’t give up because you’re not worth it, but because apparently I’m not worth it to you; not worth it enough for you to try to change you and your ways. Because of this, you continue to hurt me over and over again without second thought, apology or redemption. So for the sake of myself, I am making the decision to cut you out of my life for good. From now on my loyalty lies with me, not you. This problem is no longer mine, but yours.
I will love you, always,